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Wonderful Xmas

2011-12-26T17:06:00.001+08:00

Had a real wonderful Xmas...
My 1st Xmas with hubby...
Also my Xmas spent w close colleagues cum friends! Real fun flying kites and picnic!
My family had 2 days of dinner tgt...
Nice...
The best is still with Amber and Happy dog... Both of them enjoyed... :)
Love them!! Some pics to share the joy!!

-love Esther

Pray

2011-12-19T14:44:00.001+08:00

Just too much stuff happening so decided to head to temple again... Got a good foresight from GYM. Hopefully it last but then again life is abt ups and downs.
Things happened for a reason. Pol forced, laughed and teased me... That's their own judgement that's not even worth a cent.
Maybe my life is full of obstacles that I'll have to cross in order to learn from the essence of it. Everytime I encounter I'll have to just pray hard.

Some pics to share here... My 2 lovely darlings...

Unwell again

2011-12-04T11:35:00.001+08:00

Feeling unwell again.. This yr health is not tat gd... Feeling real terrible...
Wanna eat but wanna vomit... Stomach growling... Dreads....

Help!

Happy happy

2011-11-23T19:58:00.001+08:00

Happy dog is such a happy fruit... He makes everyone happy... He's the topic for everyone... Chatting abt him makes all laughing and feeling delighted...
This fluffy playful ball...
My darling dog...

A bimbo post

2011-11-23T17:46:00.001+08:00

For once I wanna be a bimbo... Haha
I wants to straighten my hair... But end up didn't manage to do it again... Cos my hairdresser said my curls are nice... Hmmm ok end up just dye my hair... Wahhaha
The only ppl who I felt knows how to cut or do hair is my personal hairdresser and the hairdresser @ Taiwan...
Nice!!

Bimbo

Growing up

2011-11-20T08:41:00.001+08:00

Decided to do a collage for Amber... She will enjoy her holiday trip... I know she will cos she always does since baby... A gd traveller... Love her smell... She makes me forget all the stressful stuff when I see her..
It has always been tat how tired I'm.. I will still be w her... I love her so much... There are times when she forgets all her manners but I guess at times kids picked it up from adults...
She's so smart... So witty... So positive.. Looking through her photos I realized there were several tat were taken when she was very sick... She still looked so perky and active... Admire her strong will... I always tell myself if a young kid can do tat when she's so sick... y can't I do it when it's just a minor incident in life? Nothing more feels worse than being sick...
Enjoy the pics :)

Love Amber

god loves me

2011-11-19T22:47:00.001+08:00

I had a weird dream last night. I dreamt of a baby beside me. The moment I held it in my hands,I felt I missed Amber so much I cried. I was woken up by this dream. I realised I was indeed crying away... I missed Amber so so much...
I thought I couldn't see her before she goes for her trip due to my work over the wkends.
Who knows Amber was at parkway today and my colleague saw her!! God knows I missed her so much... Im so delighted... Tks u god!!

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Can't zz

2011-11-10T22:35:00.001+08:00

Ok I'm super tired but I can't zz...
Thinking of too many stuff... Envy hubby he can zz so well and easily...
Argh stupid compliance thingy at work is killing me... Simply hate them!!
Made our life so miserable... Bloody old hell... Sickening!!!!!
God bless me tmr....

SOW

2011-11-08T07:55:00.001+08:00

Start of another stupid wk. Compliance chk will end this fri and a CSM meeting this thurs. Sucks to the max! A bad bad wk and worst one coming nx wk!

Wkend fun

2011-11-07T15:24:00.001+08:00

Had a wonderful time at RWS with amber... Spent the day and night w me... Treasured every moment e her... Can't bear to send her back...I know she as well don't wanna go hm... Bought her some stuff at universal studios store... She was delighted! Most imptly she's smiling and happy and EATING!! Tat makes me happy too!!
Ok time to rest now...
Miss u Amber....

-happy times always passes so fast

TGIF

2011-11-04T07:56:00.001+08:00

Yup at least a fri worth looking fwd to cos I'm off tmr!! Long wkend... Phew!
Gg to relax myself at RWS on sun!! Swim, nuaz in the room, drink and shop! A wkend getaway fr the city! Ok at this time I guess the govt best plan was to have these resorts for us to go somewhere tats not too far...
Gonna finish work chop chop curry pok today! Then I'm on my own nx wk onwards!! My rollercoaster ride begins!!
Hang on peeps!!

Woohoo!!

Blogging

2011-11-03T18:28:00.001+08:00

I've been blogging quite frequently..
Ok I guess we need to free out stress here only...
Seriously I just wonder why's with the youngsters nowadays. Do they have dreams ambition or goals? Work to them is just a pastime and money generator for them. No sights that they have to look ahead. Nv thought of developing their skills from there. It might not be an ideal job but they just can't do sth abt it. Trying harder was nv in their scope. Overly dependent was their only HOBBY.
How can these ppl be leaders?? Ppl like us worked so hard to be leaders. There are young ppl who just wanna be a small fry forever... Wats this?
Y can't they just achieve sth for themselves this life rather than enjoying eat zz play tats all. Disappointed with these ppl...

The young ones

Day alone...

2011-11-03T11:56:00.002+08:00

took a day off today...
doing some thinking.... reflection...

Work...
entire big branch to me...
taking care of the young and old... controls... mgt...
maybe its another trial from god to bring me to another level up.
there are things that we've to go thru thick and thin in order to understand the essence of it...
The kinds of ppl you have to manage in terms of emo and habits...
BEing a boss to a team is a heavy load.... i hope i can take on this BIG role readily and maintain it successfully... bless me...

Family
at times i guess my mum miss me loads...
i miss her too...
although im really very tired after work and loads of work, havent been gg home for dinner, she's in my heart...
my other family members as well, do miss them...
always praying for them...

Home
work has always been the pillar in between couples nowadays...
we are striving for our careers...
however we're constantly reminding each other....

solo...

Lead by example

2011-11-03T10:25:00.001+08:00

I think the best way to hold the team is to lead by example. And I guess everyone has their way to do things. Let them be.

Stressed

Happy love

2011-10-30T21:32:00.001+08:00

Just sent happy home...
Can't bear to leave him...
He's my darling... The only one who knows how i feel... Love his hug...

Sob sob
T.T

Insomnia

2011-10-30T03:21:00.001+08:00

I've not been sleeping well... I can feel the heavy load more onto me now. Yup I'm superbly stressed.
I don't wanna stress ironman cos I guess he's no matter what mentally more stable and stronger than me. I admire his strong sense and wisdom. But Guys in general aren't gd handlers at emotional state which I won't blame them. Women are emo creatures.
I've seen many younger guys who are more on the emo side nowadays... Y? Is it cos of the upbringing? Or the society making them this way? I wonder...
Happy dog is walking ard the bed and decided to land right beside me sharing the pillow with me. Sweets...
Will I ever be emotionally stronger? I've seen and been thru so much to come to this stage and I know there's more to come. I hope at times I can be like some ppl having the 'bo chab' attitude but deep down I can't..
I'm a leader now leading a big team big br. Everyone is relying on me. I've a family to lead as well in future. I need to sort it out....

G.Y.M bless me pls... Tk u

Insomnia me

Only happy knows

2011-10-26T17:44:00.001+08:00

I hope I can hold up the big branch... All responsibilities to me... This is a huge role... At times I really feel real tired. Cos everyone is aiming at me... Subordinates askin me questions... Bosses looking at me from up there... In between... I can't breathe at times... Once this happens my heart hurts... Tremendously... Like real physically... Mentally also tired...
Back home I've to look over the households... Plan what I'm gg to do on my off days...
Wondering with the kind of stress I'm getting... What will my chances of getting P? Guess the word is SLIM...

The only one that knows my feelings and mood now is happy dog. He juz know when I'm feeling down... He will be near me like what he's doing now... Happy only u know... Love u

Love happy

What is best?

2011-10-20T20:56:00.001+08:00

Every minute is so precious when it comes to happy moments.
Like today... Bringing amber and mummy out... Shopping eating juz by doing the simplest things... Makes us happy...
We went back hm... And I was napping... Amber lying nx to me and was playing games and talking while I slowly fall aslp... And hugging her... Missed this nice feeling....
Happy dog juz jumped onto the bed and lie beside me as and when he wants.... Sweets...
Waking up hearing amber's laughter and seeing happy running all ard... Like patrolling... Haha so cute... Smile juz comes...
Missed the days when I took care of amber when she was an infant... All I have is just her...
Her lil cute voice... Her kiddy sweet smell...
This is the best...

不舍得,
Esther

disappointment

2011-10-16T14:49:00.001+08:00

I'm very disappointed w Amber. She has never absorb any gd manners at all. For all I've taught her since young. All erased by her mum at once. I pray for her that she will not become a bad kid in future.

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Take over

2011-10-13T18:41:00.001+08:00

Confirm they will be putting the entire branch to me... For 4mths...
It's an opportunity yet a big trial to me... If I make it, my nx promotion will be fast... If not.... Haiz

Strong women

2011-10-10T09:53:00.001+08:00

I thought I'm stroganoff but there stronger women out there. Amongst my frenz I've got to known abt it. Women who pulled through even though their husbands have extra marital affair. Heard how they handled the entire situation even though they got hurt tremendously. Becos of a reason, they still love their husbands. Their hubbys are juz blinded by the temptations out there. It's very stupid. It's when their wives do not bother abt them anymore tats when they cone back to them.
Very dumb....
Do u get sick of someone after a longtime??
Hmmm ponder....

New plc?

2011-10-10T09:27:00.001+08:00

Should I be looking for a new job?
Hesitation...

Time bomb

2011-10-09T11:52:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we are trying to help but end up getting ourselves into deep shit. Well I may face termination but at least I learned sth... Look for sth else then juz tat it'll take sometime again...

-Esther

Boring

2011-10-07T22:05:00.001+08:00

I'm bored... Super bored...
So I hugged happy so much this evening... He's so warm.. So cuddly... So soft so sweet... Darling boy... I love happy so muchie... Wanna kiss him so much...

Things change

2011-10-06T08:16:00.001+08:00

I miss happy... A dog could tell ur mood... How tired ur at the end of the day... How did he do it?
I know I'm juz a shallow pig to tat person... Don't have to ignore me like tat...
Ur none tat clever...

True love

2011-10-01T22:56:00.001+08:00

My darlings

Pawns of her life

2011-10-01T09:56:00.001+08:00

At times I felt D is perverted. Perhaps her everyday activity is to get back hm at night and look at her self created land. It consists of many sectors with the various generals leading the sectors. As and when she feels boring, she will just move one of us like pawns. Those who did not give offerings, will suffer. Those who were her pets, will enjoy their time and be placed in places as they wished.
D is the autocratic queen. She decides who she wanna have fun with.

Piece of shit!

Teddy bears

2011-10-01T09:51:00.001+08:00

I love this picture so much...

Feeling.....

2011-09-29T21:18:00.001+08:00

Only the pic explains what I'm feeling...
Funny!! Hahha

Happy

2011-09-27T08:04:00.001+08:00

Y do I name all my pets Happy? My hamster and my dog now. Well it's juz a simple 5 letter word. Inside there's full of meaningful essence in it.
Even when saying it, it feels different. Try saying it now! How du feel? Gd right? Comes from the heart.
U can use it to ask if ur happy right now. Are u really happy? Some ain't and they are hiding it. Deep down. Only certain times when they're doing or with ppl they truly like, they began to smile from their hearts and dissolve all kinds of unhappiness.
I was watching sammi cheng's talk show abt herself. She was narrating life at her point of time where depression sat in for her. Mr depression became her best friend. She didn't want to go out or look at herself. Didn't bathe for 7days. I know tat feeling. I feel u dun need a doc if u met w this situation. All u need is urself. Only u can pull urself up. I don't see myself gg in tat situation and u don't want to. Whenever I felt it coming, I tell myself do not fall into the temptations. It'll ruin ur life!
1yr ago I almost went in full force. Luckily god is nice to me, at the point when I'm at the tip of the thin fine line, god pulled me back. Let me transfer and find a newer ground. Sth tat seemed to be custom made for me. I know many are jealous. I don't care anymore. Their comments are not even 1cent worth! Like uncle valen said, 'if I were to care wat ppl say then I dunno die how many times' haha he's right as I believe he has seen alot. Tats makes uncle valen.
Maybe i should narrate abt the ppl I work with here. They are interesting characters. Can be mean or nice. There's a reason to it. I don't judge them. They are who they are. :)

-happy dog

Lost again

2011-09-27T07:08:00.001+08:00

I'm lost again...
I dunno wat I'm doing... Could it be work tats been overwhelming me so much tat I lost the ability to think properly? Too much time spent at work. Wat I think is juz the stuff tats gg to take plc the nx day. Tat affects my rest at night.
However I guess god still loves me so. I'm working so near my hm. Whenever if kat is not ard, weird things happened to me. Are those trials from god?? So that I can be put thru the test and learn fr it?? Could be otherwise I'm juz pure unlucky to the max.
Need to go visit G.Y.M this wk. Je sending signal to me.

-Lost soul

Missing Amber so much

2011-09-25T08:42:00.001+08:00

I miss amber so much...
Missed the times taking gd care of her. Watching tv w her in the morning.. All the lil bits of life w her... Now she's so grown up and strong. I hope she'll nv forget me.

I love you Amber

Ppl finds their luxurious life bored

2011-09-25T08:27:00.001+08:00

I juz saw a comment on fb.
'Is my life gg to get on like tat forever? Having scones w jelly every wkend? It's getting boring.'
Some ppl don't even have the basic food to eat. There we have ppl complaining abt having prestigious food is boring. This person have not had gone thru any worst time of their lifes. Totally terrible to the max. Y don't they juz go try shit maybe it's more exciting! The color taste will not be bored at all ESP the smell!
Some young ppl really have no idea how gd their life is. Ppl slogged like hell! They can juz quit as and when.

I wonder when can I do the things I like? Seemed totally impossible. :/

-Esther

Life

2011-09-24T21:21:00.001+08:00

Hurt unknowingly

2011-09-24T20:10:00.001+08:00

Y is my heart feel aching?

-.-'" 辛苦 is the 2 words I thought

-Esther

这世上没有这样好的人

2011-09-23T20:50:00.001+08:00

As what I mention in the title. There's always selfish ppl. Ppl juz do things that will hurt u unknowingly.
At times I'm not sure if I should keep quiet or speak out. When I keep quiet ppl say I'm too quiet. When I voice out they say I should keep it to myself. Dreadz... Wth?!
I only know it's better to depend on yourself... Tats all... 靠人不如靠己

-Esther

The iPhone era

2011-09-23T08:14:00.001+08:00

I felt ppl nowadays are married to their iPhone more than anything else.
I've subordinates who comes to work juz play w their iPhones and forgot all abt their job scope. Don't they have aspirations to climb? Or is it happier that way? When I was in their position I strived so hard juz to get to where I'm now. But maybe my position is another persons most dreaded one. I'm sandwiched in between... Up and down... So I've to think fast and quick! Cos everyone are standing ard me for answers...
Back to the topic... Is iPhone so dominating? Is it even better than communicating to ur loved ones directly? I wonder... Where are all the conventional stuff? Letters... Notes... The only soul I know that don't use all these gadgets is Happy dog. Yup cos he's a dog. And tts gd! Y do dogs able to communicate to humans without even talking? Captures our hearts at instance. The feel and gestures... The most genuine ones...
Life is so techno now that humans missed out the most impt part of their life. Even in the toilet.
Well I'm glad I've found gd colics cum frenz in the branch. However our souls are all sold to iPhone! I wonder what is the life without these gadgets? Contradicting? Indeed.
Maybe I should write a book abt iPhone life now. Very interesting and true to the facts.

Will continue....

-esther

Ambers birthday party

2011-09-23T08:01:00.001+08:00

Last night we had a sumptuous dinns at Irodori. Amber enjoyed her meal. Love the way she's so cheerful and sweet. So strong...
I'm always learning from her... U nv know how much u gonna learn from children as well. Amber knows that there are negative stuff ard her but she knows how to handle it and not frown abt it... Tats y I love her so much...
Stay strong Amber!!

Fighting!
Esther

Happy 7th birthday Amber sweetie!!

2011-09-22T18:25:00.001+08:00

Today's Amber's 7th birthday. As usual it's a birthday campaign!!! Since her 1st birthday... We will be holding a big party for her.. Nevertheless I'll always prepare her the greatest and her fav things ever!!
Balloons and cake are what I promised to get her...
Yiyi mimi and yi zhang will always love you....
Be good and clever and nv forget be strong!!!!!!!

Love,
Yiyi mimi

Big stone brought down

2011-09-21T18:48:00.001+08:00

Finally I've completed the big shit... Yup the stupid proj... Argh have been haunting for the past few mths...
I see another few more coming along...

-Esther

Just do the job

2011-09-20T21:29:00.001+08:00

I just wanna do my job... Tats all... So many extras

Chiong all the way

2011-09-20T08:06:00.001+08:00

These 2 wks are crucial. Seemed like loads of things to do. No off days till the wk after next. Dreadz... Only have my sundays to really zzzzzz
Should I do a switch of jobs? Getting sick n tired by all these craps! At times I feel it's gd to be a bimbo. Dunno wats gg on dunno anything. Juz get on w life happily ever after. At least ur happier.
Knowing too much is not a gd thing. Pretending not to know is worst!
Ppl can juz get away w sth whereas you can't.

Move on

-Esther

Happy and I

2011-09-19T18:12:00.001+08:00

This is happy and I on a lazy evening... Haha super nuaz!!
After today it's a chiong wk... Hope everything goes well...

-Esther

Unbelievable

2011-09-19T00:24:00.001+08:00

Till now I still can't believe I'm married. I rmb I kept thinking I'm someone whom noone dares to marry. Not tat I'm inferior, juz too stressed to be w a person like me. Then again found someone who had the greatest courage. Someone who spoils me to e max. Love him to e max.
The best thing is having him zz by my side every night.... Hugs...
Gd night
-Esther

Often now

2011-09-18T12:58:00.001+08:00

Now that blogger have the application for iPhone it's perfect! I can start my blogging again!!
Life is so much different now. New ppl new dog!
At times I felt happy dog is sent down from god. To make us happy. He's very accommodating. Lil cuddly dog. I love u happy.

-Esther

Time flies

2011-09-18T09:36:00.001+08:00

Time flies real fast.. Juz a wink of eyes I'm near 30. Things are having a change in the way we think we do and we are living. Can't believe it.
Parents are growing older too... I juz hope they can enjoy their lifes as much as possible now that all of us are grown ups and we each have our own family.
Most imptly is we stand strong as a family and go thru all odds hand in hand no matter wat happens.
Amber is so grown up now. She's aldy 7. Growing to become a beautiful girl. Her bday is nearing as usual. Every bday I'll be here for her.
Here are some moments in my life now.

-Esther

New phase of life...

2011-01-17T21:21:00.003+08:00

In less than 2 mths, we will be entering the next phase of life...

phew... so fast... times really flies...

the house is getting ready... now the seating for the dinner...

~Esther

Happy Birthday to ME ME ME!!

2010-08-06T10:23:00.002+08:00

ITs here again!!!
I've accomplished more this yr...
My Promotion... My Ironman... My Flat...
The next phase is... marriage...
accomplishing is easy... sustaining it is another issue...
however... im gg to hang on no matter what...
tks to ppl around me... praised me... insulted me...
i fell and all these helped me to climb back up again...
the process is definitely very tedious but worth it....
i learned... move on...

tk all those who stood by my side all these while...
Especially Ironman...
he, himself, had loads of stuff as well... he stood by me... supported me...
selflessly...
ok i've all my life to say tk u to him...
first, we've to do up the flat....
the decors... reno...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

~Esther

Amber & Happy

2010-07-14T21:06:00.003+08:00

so nice to see Amber & Happy jumping and smiling at me whenever i reached home.
they are always so delighted to see me... one's calling out loud to me.. another's barking...
both are hopping laughing in their purest hearts... and innocence...
how nice....
how i hope this remains forever.... and ever...

time passes so fast... Amber's gonna be Primary One next yr..
times really really flies....
he was just a baby and i was just feeding her milk, changing her diapers...
here she is... gg to pri sch.. and before i know it... she moving on the sec sch... etc.
so fast...

she's still my sweetheart....

Love,
Esther

\^.^/

2010-05-30T11:43:00.002+08:00

a long time i blogged again...
had been hogging onto pps stream recently...

had an excting holiday wkend with Ironman...
i rmbed a bastard told me before...
"im sure you'll have a good man taking good care of you..."
i guess that's the only thing tat bastard said right...
all tks to him... hahahha...
it came true...
the one and only ironman...

~Esther

My perfect wonderland...

2010-05-16T21:23:00.003+08:00

My perfect wonderland will be to have children and dogs living together...
yup.. heck the hygiene thingy...
dogs can be trained... puppies will be to be closed up first... then let out once they 'graduate'!
loads of happiness and fun... in that wonderland...
isnt tat beautiful?
i kept these visions on my mind recently...
how i hope i can go to that wonderland of mine soon...
all i hear are voices of children.... tapping sounds of dogs walking ard with the lil children...
innocence and loyalty...
everything are positive... noone discriminates...
how wonderful...

in my perfect wonderland now... is only Happy and Amber...
Bryan and I will mend the place...
ok... i'll put this picture up...

~Esther

My 1st wedding dress fitting...

2010-05-16T10:45:00.002+08:00

I went for my first fitting on fri...
wooo... so many dresses to try...
dress after dress..
managed to confirm the one MAIN dress...
the rest... my consultant will keep a lookout for me...
alright... wedding photos will be taken on Oct...
Amber was so excited to be there with me...
I knew she'll be... so i brought her along...
this is my fav pic i took with her...
when i saw this, i had this really touched feeling...
tears filled my eyes...
Amber is so grown up now...
she's gonna be there for everything...

I love you Amber...

~Esther

really wanna leave...

2010-04-08T18:35:00.001+08:00

things are getting bad @ work....
everyday... fear turn us on...
and im being picked on...
only FT treats me good... some treat me good for some motive....
sucks... and i dunno wat's happening...
damn it...

~Esther

balance

2010-03-29T09:18:00.003+08:00

I guess the modern women nowadays have to make a balance in more aspects in their life...
women have to juggle between career, their spouse, their children, families, themselves....
of which... the last has to be the last....
most imptly are their closed ones.....
im in the midst of getting into this situation...
still wondering how to go about doing all these without getting anyone neglected...

god... tell me how...?

~Esther

laughing @ others

2010-03-24T19:22:00.002+08:00

i always feel everyone's equal...

nobody looks down on anyone..
unless you let others do that to you...
for example... being a loser... jealousy...
at times... ppl misunderstand cos there are things that they dont see...
they assume naturally... guess this person could be still rather young in their thinking...maybe when they get to that stage, they'll know...

to me...
if you dare talk bad abt someone... dont be afraid that words might spread...
its really very unethical... its worse if it's not true at all...
if you'r afraid words will spread... just keep your thoughts to yourself...
nobody's saint....
ppl commit mistakes and learn...

like my previous entry... about ppl being envious or jealous of me...
already i have ppl writing abt it on their blogs...
saying me this and that...
its ok...
i know its happening or happened... only i know the truth...
they are just ignorant ppl... i cant stop how they think...
still young and naive...
they'll grow up... someday...
=)

~Esther

My Cancer Crab....

2010-03-22T19:45:00.002+08:00

Here's a true write-up of my cancer crabby man...
muacks muacks to him...

The most sensitive man and the weakest emotional type in all Zodiac. Cancer is controlled by the "Moon" and the moon change it's shape daily, so Cancer man's emotional and moods change all the time too. You will confuse with him and yet it is his constantly changes that "Charm" you. He never go to get what he wants directly, but he will wait for a chance and opportunity to do so. Once he gets what he wants, he will not loose it, except if he get tired of it by himself. The most sensitive man who can not stand rejection. He cares what other people feel or think of him. He hates loosing face and he tends to over protected himself, so sometimes people might think he is a cold person.

Gifted, creative, imaginative, is Cancer. A mystery and complexity play a major role in a life of a Cancer man. He could be very funny, very quiet, suddenly very sad. Living with him could be very unexpected, for you will not know what is his next mood. If you like excitement and surprise, you have the right guy and never have a chance to get bored.

He thinks of his home as "nest" and it is the safest place for him. If he feels hurt or depress he will stay at home alone quietly. Once he feels better, he will come out of his retreat and lives normally again. Being a looser is not him.

It is so easy to fall in love with this guy because he is gentle and a very polite guy. His wit and creative mind could win your affection. He will come out from his nest to protect you even if he is not opening himself up to other people much. Not many people will win his heart. His security is only when he has money in his pocket. Once he feels secure then he might think of having a happy family. Even he likes to make and keep money, he is not
stingy. Spending money is part of his good image, so he will be happy to spent money to take you out to a very expensive restaurant or buy a jewelry for you. Certainly when he has money OK.

He is possessive to everything's that he thinks belong to him. Don't try to talk to another cute guy in front of him, he will get suspicion because he is not very secure or confident in himself for this kind of competition.

Once you know each other too much, he will start to look for new excitement, but not to worry for he will always think of you. If he thinks you are the true love for him, and you try once to disappear. You will be sure he will come and look for you.

He is a shy guy, but if he likes you. You can get up in the morning and see that he is in front of your house everyday till you go out with him, a very persistent guy.

He likes a secure, cheerful and lively woman, confident but at the same time always act proper and appropriate. He likes a secure woman, but able to adjust to his rapid changes. A very difficult type to find woman indeed.

In the beginning, you and him will be so sugary sweet together and he will only think of you. This so "super romantic" will not last forever, so don't slip this chance. If you are the one who want his interest, then act and make yourself interesting. Be a supportive person and give him compliment sometimes, but not too much till he thinks you are not sincere.

Unlike many other Zodiac, if he is mad then you better get out of that room. He will calm down by himself. Giving him a slight touch on his shoulders or concerned facial _expression are enough. He loves his mother, so try to be his mother favorite, but do not act like his mother!

~Esther

Compare and be disappointed

2010-03-19T19:14:00.003+08:00

I dunno y some ppl just love to compare....
it'll just make your life miserable...
it must have been sth that we cant see that made that thing happened...

i've heard someone said before... y ppl can find a good paid job so easily?
whereas i cant even find a job that exceeds 2k?
it must have been sth that stopped you from there...

in life, there are many things that happened and we cant really control that...
i dunno y there are certain number of ppl who are jealous or envious about me....
what did i do?
i never get you into trouble or killed your entire family.... y me?
my life isnt THAT fantastic nor extremely rich or accomplished...
just a normal girl leading a normal life... that's all....
and my life... really NORMAL....
a job that pays... a nice husband... building up a nice normal family...
i didnt do any BAD stuff....
so i dont see y i should be treated this way from these ppl....

the more we compare... the more disappointed we will be....
its never fair...

~Esther

Promotion~~!!

2010-03-07T12:33:00.002+08:00

The long awaited promotion is finally here...
from the senior officer role to a managerial role...
higher responsibilities...
Tks to FT for 'fighting' for me... cheers to him!
actually bearly 3yrs got my promotion... the norms...
a new and good start for the yr...
then i can plan my wedding with peace...
cant wait to be Mrs Tan... hahahah...

Ironman is now pasting up his iron mattress cover.... hahah...
with scotchtape... heehee...

saving up now tgt with Ironman is the main priority... with less than a yr to go...
chiong ah.....

~Esther

HOtel done!

2010-03-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

Finally we've booked our hotel...
its gonna be at my dream plc... airport...
dinner ceremony @ airport...
so sweet... peaceful...
love the plc... always wanted to be there...
should i have the rainforest theme? or see what they have available...?
heehee...
cant wait to start planning with ironman..
doing the stuff...
we'r left the flat... then i can start selecting my dresses!!!

had a really wonderful wkend with ironman @ Hotel Re...
retro theme hotel... love the colors...
will be back... hee...

~Esther

the blog for the longest time...

2010-02-23T19:24:00.002+08:00

i had this blog for the longest time...
inside here... there were many jerks... and arses... haha
happy and sad matters....
ultimately... the route i took brought me to the RIGHT ONE!!!

YES!!!! My Ironman!!!!!!

MUACKS!

~Esther

You make my life complete...

2010-02-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

I've never seen Ironman cry...
but i saw him today... cos he's looking thru the photos when he was young...
the times he was working hard... playing hard...
his parents... his sibilings... it made him realise how fast time passes...
our parents is growing older by the days... hrs... mins... secs...
guess it touched his softest spot...
he was touched today.. finally everyone was at home... to LO HEI tgt...
he never had this before... everyone was so preoccupied with their own stuff...
he always wanted to have everyone tgt.... for dinner... for any meal...

Ironman really made my life complete...
i was telling him... i realised that he never really did make me CRY before...
cos he never did anything wrong...
i cry when i really miss him at times of emotional state.... when i really need him to be with me...
otherwise... he made me smile always... from my heart...
in my mind, i always tell myself... i've got someone who truly loves me...
a really good man... friend... spouse... father for my kids...
everyone who sees him felt happy for me... and for him too!!
everyone could tell that we'r ready... to move on...
begin the next stage of life.... but of cos with proper planning...

i just cant wait for that day to come...
our wedding... when our married life begins...
i'll get to hug him everyday... tease him... cuddle him...
making him smile... make him a blissful man...

~Esther

gong xi gong xi...

2010-02-12T09:37:00.003+08:00

Yea... who's this cute lil fella??
This is Happy... our new addition to our family...
he's always there for us...
you'll miss him if you go out...

Happy gets EMO too... needs sometime himself at times...
dont like the heat since day 1 he enters the house...
he'll identify any area that has the fan or air con...
cant blame him, he wears a sweater everyday... hahahhaha...
loves his lambchop toy...
loves to play combat attack...
hates the vacuum cleaner...
fav hiding plc, under the chair...
runs his self-created circuit at least once a day....
loves to hop on his 2 hind legs...
loves to bath...
never knows what is FULL...

THat's Happy... our weird lil pup... hahaha...
Loves him so much.....

~Esther

Happy...

2010-01-17T09:34:00.002+08:00

Happy was rather disobedient this morn...
shitted and pee on the living room...
he knew it was wrong...
i caught him and gave him a good wacking...
i could feel that he felt remorseful...
after tat... he did not feel distant from me...
he still stuck by me...
want me to stroke him...
even animals rmb the good things that i gave...
if never rmb the bad ones...
how come humans cant?
sad...

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I rmbed someone ever said about 2 yrs ago that i was getting revengeful...
i never thought i did...
i just fighting rights for myself...
i should be the leader instead...
i only wanna be led by someone worth it... and thats Bryan...
tats all....

~Esther

endure...

2010-01-13T19:06:00.003+08:00

throughout the yrs... i realised i've learned to let go of loads of things that i used to brood abt...
there are times whereby you get into a 'rebellious' mode...
i've been there... done that... when you'r out there you meet your obstacles...
hit... injured... learn... let go... and start anew...
that's when new thinking... new ppl enters your life...
that's the 转泪点... turning point...
guess everyone goes thru that stage... after that, you learn the essence of it...
most impt, you've to hang on and believe you can get thru the diff time...
2 yrs ago, i did loads of atrocious stuff... that till now... i cant believe i did it with the kinda character i have... i still cant believe what i did... and y i did it...?
guess its for exploration... 新鲜感...

whenever i dunno wat to do.. i'll leave it to god... he'll show me the way....
direct me... and i'll draft out the rest myself... tat's when you gained wisdom and mature...
we have to be positive and endure till the end... and you'll be at the rainbow on the other side...
then you looked back... all you've cried... procastinated... cursed... etc. part and parcel of getting thru and understanding it at the end... you even laughed at yourself for doing those silly things...
im a pessismist... im so glad i could get thru so many SHIT...
i hope others ard me can get by easier than me....

for eg. those ppl who used to humiliate me...
there's nth i can do... i left it to god...
get on with my life...
and there you go...
always god have eyes to see and heart to feel....
i believe....
the god there is out there....

~Esther

long long time ago...

2010-01-03T12:50:00.003+08:00

I've been really lazy to cast my thoughts here...
thinking of my career.... my wedding to come... our flat.... this and that...
it will be a BUSY year this 2010...
Ironman has his degree to complete... our wedding to plan... our flat... his career too....
many things ahead... but we'll face it as a challenge... to bring us to the nx level of wisdom...
most imptly... our health we must take care... yup, ironman??

Cheers,
Esther...
p/s: i typed this while shitting... haha

unfair n negligence

2009-12-12T13:58:00.002+08:00

THis thing had been in my heart for the longest time...
sick and tired i've to see such stuff everyday...
working with shallow ppl...
why????
im the substitute... never the first one...
things change....
its doesnt matter...
hope i can move on after the lump sum...
pure stupid mgt....

~Esther

Ironman on mission

2009-11-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

Ironman is on mission...
so i'm on my own fo the day... hee...
went for mani and pedicure... a long time since i last went...
good time to rejuvenate...

happy was throwing tanthrums when we went for dinner...
anyhow pee pee... eewwww...
i've to clean the mess up....
he knows its wrong to do that...
so now he's under confinement.... boo!
lecture and disciplinary actions had been taken...
he's quietly being confined....
think he;s feeling remorseful...
he better be!! so smelly...
hahah...

everyone still loves happy...
he's the kai xin guo....

miss ironman so much...

~Esther

updates...

2009-11-25T19:25:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time...
ironman just chatted with me... cant wait to get our flat and start our renovations...
get ready by nx yr end and officially be husband and wife...
we really do look fwd to that...

Happy's been growing really fast...
he's 6mths now... so good boy... so cute...
won himself a prize for being the cutest dog....

Amber's so grown up too...
she can speak so well now... like an adult...
but naughty is still the main character in her... haiz......

there's gg to be another change... for better...

~Esther

rain rain go away...

2009-11-17T19:39:00.002+08:00

its the time of the yr again...
rainy season... our winter is just to rain and rain... that's all...
bored... ironman have to work OT... wooooo....
sianz... feeling so lethargic recently...
dunno y.... cant get up in the morning for work....
getting fat.... hahahhaha
backache for such a bad weather....
gggrrrr.....
Ironman... come play with me....... humph......

~Esther

tests from god...

2009-11-12T22:39:00.003+08:00

i dunno y... guess its just tests from god...
to dig up some past stuff and trigger me... see if i could endure this difficult thingy myself..
before i went for the trip... i saw some news regarding someone... on the newspp...
it just triggered the disgusted part of it right away... i just felt 'eww'...
yup.. the 人渣... so disgusted that its worse than shit... faeces...

when ppl wanna see me die... i wont... i'll hang on... till the end... even if i bleed to death...
i'll hANG on...! 死都要陈下去。。。
of cos there'r certain things i'l let go...

its gonna be a rough route ahead...
i'll hang on...

~ESther

TW trip with ironman...

2009-11-11T20:11:00.004+08:00

Just back from my Taiwan trip with Ironman...
great experience... took train more than what i took in spore...
walked more than ever... but never felt tired till i touched down in spore...
had a great time with ironman...
great food... great shopping...

i was a princess all the way...

tks Ironman... you never wanna let me feel xin ku...

its ok... i can chi yi dian ku... k? hahahaha

i esp love tghe cafe over the mountain...

it was romantic...

poor ironman... kena sabo by me to take prints... hahahha

happy happy!!

we'll be back!! =p

~Esther

it's the HOLs!!!

2009-11-04T18:19:00.002+08:00

One and a half days more to my trip with Ironman!!!
Rest & Relax!!
We'r gg back to Taiwan... only one available...
most imptly is to relax ourselves...
spend quality time tgt...
after all the stress and squabbles we've been having during this period of time...
too much stress....

Taiwan, here we come!!!

~Esther

Happy's new makeover...

2009-11-01T13:44:00.003+08:00

finally can see Happy's FACE..

so handsome...

everyone loves happy... and Happy loves everyone too...

~ESther

all i can do is to just shake my head

2009-10-28T19:32:00.002+08:00

I've been getting worried abt Amber...
her future... her discipline... which is the most impt thing to focus and concentrate...
however.... even her parents dont care... should i?
they just let her be.... thinking she's smart enough...
here im teaching and disciplining... there she is being spoilt by her parents...
i dunno what to do... lost...
i dont wan her to be a lost kid... in the future...
she can be taught... she can be disciplined...
real sad..........

~Esther

Amber's back!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-28T20:42:00.003+08:00

Finally... Amber is back...

i miss her so much.... think of her day n night...

at last someone to make loads of noise at home...

asking me the same qns...

'Yiyi mimi, can you play sth with me??'

hahahahahha

nv change... its her habit... i hope 20 yrs down the road she still says the same thing?

hhaha... perhaps nt anymore... she'll be busy dating ard...

many bees... and insects surrounding her... huh...

nonetheless... she's still my precious....

And she got me a big gingerbread heart!!! so sweet!!!

Home sweet home, Amber...

i love you...

Psst... she's enjoying her sushi now...

~Esther

Appraisal...

2009-09-27T11:22:00.002+08:00

1 more day before Amber returns!!!

Yes!!!

These are the fattest AMber pics i can find... look at the double chin...

So cute......!!!!!

Alright... was suppose to be doing my appraisal and ended up shopping online...

bot a crystal quartz ring... hahahha.... its only 18bucks... cheap...

but nth like the diamond ring ironman gave me....

think its a big bomb for him... and so... i told him just treat it as an investment... hahhah

while writing my appraisal, i realised im more on the people manager than only work target...

work target only might just make you subordinates feel dreadz...

whatever it is, i did my best... hmm! the rest will just leave it to the word called "LUCK"

had been saving quite alot.... i hope more to come...

Cheers!

on thurs... after work... while having dinner... i received an sms... from Nancy...

asking me y do i look so unhappy today @ work... its there sth wrong?

im puzzled y she suddenly ask me that... not really her norms...

but im touched... tks Nancy for your concern... think she should know y im unhappy...

geez... just felt real sad she's transferring...

~Esther

Post-Happy 1st yr anniversary

2009-09-25T19:55:00.002+08:00

We had dinner @ Sunset Bay Bougainvilla....

sweet bougainvilla basket set, sunset wings and pizza....

enjoyed the smooth red wine and cool mojito...

love....

~Esther

thanks...

2009-09-24T20:44:00.001+08:00

Im grateful some can understand the 'shit' im gg thru now...
thks sharon... thks mimi...
thk them for knowing it....
its time to go...
~Esther

Happy 1ST yr!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-23T18:44:00.002+08:00

Time really flies.. so fast,, so much...

its the 1st yr... for Ironman and I...

the passion and love still remains...

remembered last yr this day...

somebody pretended to put his hand over my shoulder for resting purpose...

then.. unknowingly....

still rmbed he wore the 'Gimme the money' t-shirt...

my 1st thought for that shirt was... 'duh... wat a weird shirt'

actually was quite cool after i saw it the whole night!!!

our 1st date... he brought me to sunset bay east coast to eat Rojak...

hahaha...

that night... we were totally attracted to each other...

absolutely... i slept with a sweetest smile ever...

and yes... tonight im gg there... again...

i finally can go there with the person i love and vice versa (haha!!!)

and nonetheless...we'll continue to torture each other for the rest of our lives!!!!

Happy 1st Year!!!!

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Dearest Ironman....

I'll always love, take good care and provide you with all the tender loving care as much as i can...

I Love You!!!

~Your Wife-to-be

Miss Amber so muchie...

2009-09-20T15:48:00.001+08:00

The singing... the talking...

I miss her so much...

~Esther

bathing

2009-09-20T11:52:00.001+08:00

there's one thing that i cant do without...

BATHING!!!

it feels im in tranquility... nirvana... whenever im bathing and im done...

wooohoooooo...

~Esther

confession

2009-09-19T10:03:00.002+08:00

ok... i admit...

i got a 50bucks lipstick that day... ironman paid for it...

hahahhaha...

we'r thinking of changing to a new car...

with lower instalments, we can install a built-in tv cum dvd player....

we can enjoy all we want... wont be so boring sitting in the car... hee =p

alright... its raining...

ironman actually wanna buy breakfast over... but...

he was riding his bike ytd instead of driving his car...

think cant come le... humph...

for the rest of the day, its just DVD... TV... DVD... TV...

dreadz boss just sms me ytd night that he needs my appraisal form by nx wkend...

WTF??!! whole wk nv tell me... now then tell me??

darn it... anyway.. not much different as last yr...

same responsibilities... same duties... same areas...

~Esther

Ex VS Cheap...

2009-09-18T09:45:00.002+08:00

I was just looking at the new facial foam i've bot 2days back...

then i thought....

in the past... when i was still in school, i used to get facial foams that cost 50 bucks per tube...

yup... its the branded ones... toners tat cost over 50buckeroos...

and.. .the fact tat im still schooling...

but now... my facial foam only cost 7.80... hahaha...

since i worked, i become more 'giam siap'... or maybe cos its the banker's syndrome...

we count to the last cent... haha this is the procedure we've to adopt...

ok... except for the branded bags part... im still buying it... yes i can afford it...

some ppl said 'y dont get a car?'

a car is a liability... tat's wat ironman told me... it depreciates real fast...

expenses goes up to maintain it... so wat's the point?

ok... i've ppl to send me here and there la...

the only bus ride is back home everyday... and takes only 10mins... (everyone wanna F*** me for this..)

daddy sends me to work everyday... yup... im lucky...

if work late... ironman fetch me...

i sort of lost touch with the public transport...

hmmmm.. mummy is nagging n nagging... not abt me...

eeeeeeeeeee.....................

~Esther

2009-09-14T18:29:00.000+08:00

Amber & Happy... Best of pals...
It's really cute to see them walk each other... Happy's always waiting for Amber and looking out for her... as if protecting her... how sweet.... Love this innocence...

work...

2009-09-14T18:16:00.000+08:00

It's been sometime since i've mentioned sth abt work...
recently i've heard sth really sad... this colic of mine to be transfered out soon...
i never felt so much for a colic b4... but for her... i do...
thinking back... i do have some misunderstandings with her when i first worked with her...
sitting beside her for sometime... i realised she's not wat i thought...
and she changed too... eversince i came as well...
i gotta feeling i opened her up.... and she's more willing to accept loads of stuff...
for that... im grateful...
i saw the day... and it's finally here... she's leaving soon...
i do appreciate her guidance and solid knowledge she has...
there are shortcomings... but... then again... its natural...
tat's wat teamwork is all abt... putting in all positive efforts to make things happen...
im sure... she'll retire happily ever after when the day comes...
good luck and all the best to her....
GOd bless her!!

~ESther

Amber's birthday part II

2009-09-14T17:48:00.000+08:00

AMber's Sleeping Beauty theme birthday celebration...
as usual... she gotta choose her cake (I got the cake... usual procedure) haha...
she was so fascinated by the cake that she was loss for words...
got a princess dress and tiara for her as well...
dont she look lovely??

the personalised birthday balloon...

Happy Birthday Amber... Sweet 5 yrs old...

2009-09-14T09:37:00.000+08:00

Time passes so fast... Amber's 5 yrs old...
She was just borned back then... only a lil baby...
now she's able to converse in anyway....all ways i mean... haha...
i guess a BEST gift this yr is Happy the puppy...
She really do love him so much...

Rest for the day....

2009-09-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

Dont have to work for the day...
non-stop 6 days work for a few wks...
my block leave nx wk... not gg anywhere cos my hubby-to-be got tests nx wk...
nvm... just be with him...
had a fun filled KTV session with him...
was singing the song 一个人 by Jolin Tsai... dont have the 'feel' when i sang it last yr...
cos now is 两个人 then 三个，四个... enough...
hahaha... Ironman is dying to have his lil iron kids... eat more calcium la...
i know ironman will be a good father... i really love his strong family values...
tat makes him a great family man... tat's wat i love... (like my father.. haha)

hmmmm my entries always abt Ironaman huh....

~Esther

Bliss...

2009-09-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

Sarang Hamida YeonWonni...

2009-09-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

older wiser?

2009-09-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

at times... we always thought...
we get wiser as we get older?
i thought so too.... but think its not the same anymore...
i've examples now... and indirectly... i learned from them...
how to handle my own affairs in the future...
ironman and i saw it in our own eyes.... we discuss and learned from it...
y did all these happened? y...? and wat we can do to rectify if we were to face it in the future...
most imptly... communicate...

next...
looking at Amber...(she's facing punishment now.. oops!)
how much she has grown...
seen her from a lil newborn baby to a lil gal.. tats growing up day by day... min by min...
time really flies... she's still my sweetheart...
she's hugging the lil toy dog... while facing punishment... sends a warm feeling to me...
i always tell her... no matter wat happens... i'll be there for her... always love her...

~Esther

things came and went...

2009-09-05T17:28:00.000+08:00

hmmmm wonder... how things came and went...
last wk, ironman was in an accident... that really freak me out...
luckily he was ok... just a sprained ankle... its his car... oh mann.. needed a revamp...haha
we really gone thru loads of stuff tgt...
helpless at hospital.. accident... sick... after every incident, we know how impt we'r to each other...
just being we ironman lets me feels safe...

muacks to ironman!!

~Esther

moving forward

2009-09-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

Finally got all our stuff that's been accumulated for the past 30 over yrs outta the house...
giving it a brand new look....
squeezing at my sis's plc... for the moment... hahahah...
its only this time tat we get to really clear unnecessary things out...
hmmm in a yr or so... im moving out... into with Ironman... to our brand new nest...
so looking fwd to that too...

~Esther

y...?

2009-08-17T19:37:00.001+08:00

I felt i've lost HIM...
SHE'S lost...
where is the the meeting point now?

~ESTHer

Move on...

2009-08-12T12:13:00.003+08:00

Every second ya dwell on e past, ya steal from ya future. Every min ya spend focuing on ya prob, ya take away from finding ya solutions. Thinking about those things ya wished nv happened to ya is actually blocking all things ya want to happen from entering ya life...

~ESther

Of men & women

2009-08-12T07:44:00.002+08:00

I know this is very mushy...
BUT im still gg to go ahead with this part for today's entry...

YY's someone who i'll put in my heart forever. SOmeone I'll nv forget even nx life. He nv fails to tell me how beautiful i'm. he's knows i've low self esteem and constantly reminds me that i'll always be the best in his heart. Whenever we'r not feeling good w each other, he always initiate to come fwd to hug and comfort ME. I was drawn to him since e 1st day we met. I finally zz w a smile after that date. e last time was 8 yrs ago. all these yrs, i've nv had tat feeling till i met YY. Felt im alive again after these 8 zombie yrs. always felt the heartbeat pumping real hard whenever i'm meeting him. Getting ready early and wait for him to pick me up. Finally found someone i can rely on emotionally, sth that even TH cant do it. It's worth the wait.

Not worth to have treated those past freaks so nice (except for my 1st bf). e rest are really waste of time and efforts. I even wished i could SHRED some. Yup, one in particular with hatred as deep as the Pacific Ocean. Hmm... you just have to meet loads of freaks in order to identify a good one.

Talking about men... how abt women?
lets be fair here right?
YY mentioned sth quite true, a gal can be very pretty and have loads of suitors...
HOwever, e ability to let e guy stay by your side is more impt. Looks doesn't count in here.
So wat are e attributes to keep your guy? Brains? Character? Or a combi of both?
GUys nowadays wan someone who not only have brains but also your ability to to share your ideas with him in e most caring way. No more bimbo nor dominant concept.

Nx issue...
Is it impt tat your guy must have a career at least on par w or better than yours?
Logically, it'll be better if he's doing better.
Ultimately guys do feel e pinch if things are not on par and lower. e unbalance feel will come in and turn into flames if not handled properly.
We, women will have to play our part this time. Balance out anything and share e load, tgt as one. of cos not spoiling them.
Then again we'll ask ourselves 'wat if we helped him yet he doesnt appreciate?'
FUCK it. Jus bad luck, another freak. or get back at them. haha

Cheers,
Esther

August-Me

2009-08-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

Many stuff happened these August...
Happy and Unhappy...

Attended Shabz wedding... one more fren married...
found a pri sch fren who's also married FARAWAY... blissful....
more to come... or should i say those ard me are all almost married?? haha
It's gonna be me nx yr...
Im gg to be Ironman's most beautiful wife... heehee...

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However... I've encountered stories of Lost love...
Love tat began and ended at a 'perfect' timing...
one in particular tat pains me the most...
Love is the most unpredictable thing in this world...
You wont know what will happen till the end...
Like red wine... the moment its not open, then opened, left to breathe, drink it and the ending...
The taste differs every phase...
My 'motto' is to cherish every moment when its the best tasted...
no matter what im gg to encounter... im glad i've led my life thru it...
Life's nv perfect... its how you gonna handle it in a right way...

although there'r negative stories revolving ard... i will not project it on mine...
i'll treat it as a reference... the mistakes we commit... the lessons we learned...
im glad Ironman is a really mature guy... i admire the way he settles things calmly...
not shouting or screaming...
Im no more dating a 'young child'... im finally dating a MAN...

I've been sharing with Charmaine... about how i derive abt getting the right guy for yourself...
it's great to date many... BUT again you feel insecure... cos if you'r doing it, others might be doing it as well.... and you usually will be lost.. wondering which attributes should a guy possess in order to be your RIGHT guy?
Let him come into your life naturally... he might be the person you least expected...

i didnt realise ironman was the right one for me... until one day...
i discovered he's the only guy that answers my qns diligently... tactfully...
he even went into DETAILS... tat's when i know........ i missed this guy out for sometime...
i've been gg out with the wrong ppl... vision blocked by freaks....
so from now... he's the only one im gg out with...

Love,
Esther

p/s: Dearest Chingu, if you'r seeing this... let me tell you... no matter what... we'r here for you... just let us know... we'll try our best to get you out of any shit pit... k?

Happy birthday to ME~~!!!!

2009-08-09T12:07:00.003+08:00

Hidiho!! I had a wonderful Bday this yr....with my loved ones... and frenz who really do care abt me...cards... prezzies... gatherings.... esp with my Haolian Clan....
Ivan.. CHarmaine... JOyce...
they spent a Funny & wacky night with me... as usual...

difference between this yr and last yr...?
I managed to get out of alota SHIT stuff... (esp ppl that will be a hindrance to my life...)
picked myself and moved on...
found my true love... tat's when i stopped hunting then my 'Bae Yong Joon' came along...
i finally can feel what's REAL LOVE.... loving unconditionally...

I've put on weight... BUT im happy... sooo... hahahhahaha...

Love this cake... its DURIAN!!!

my fav!!!

TKs dear....

I love you...

~Esther

Happy always...

2009-07-31T12:47:00.002+08:00

Its gonna be my birthday again... nx wk...
TIme flies....
Like i always thought.... nx yr this time... what changes are there gg to be??
this yr... as compared to last yr... im still in the same job...
BUT we've 2 new members to the family...
One's my ironman...
and the other is our new friend... Happy...
AMber's wish come true.... a puppy to play with...

God bless Happy... may he always be happy.. like our hammie... =)

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To Ironman,

i know we've been facing difficulties recently...

loads of planning to do to our big day... taking our steps into it...

loads of fumbles to come along the way...

however... you'r the BEST that ever happened to me...

i know in my heart...

I love you...

~Esther

Ironman wants an UPDATE!!!

2009-07-08T19:00:00.002+08:00

Few nights back... Ironman 'questioned' me... y my blog so long nv update?
Pure laziness...
This is for you Ironman!!
YOur Birthday came and went... guess you'll rmb forever...

I organised a lil 'our very own' birthday stay at airport hotel...
nice place... cosy... spacious... Ironman is happy...
then followed by a wkend stay at Bintan resort... super good...
Lil cupcakes from Amber and I...
think Amber is more excited than we are...

so relaxed... while everyone's busy working away on a wkday...

we were enjoying life... lazing ard... face masks... swimming...

BUT poor ironman have to be iron maid for awhile... boiling water for me... haha

Ironman ends with a tired... BUT wonderful birthday wkend...

memorable indeed...

oh boy... the more i looked at us... the more i felt we have 夫妻脸...

Love you, Ironman!!!!

~ESther